Hello, Everyone!

Hi! It's me, Melody.

I decided to create a blog for the sake of creating a blog. I don't expect anyone to read it, and probably nobody will, but I made one. I plan on using this as just my journal. With the stress that I deal with in college, I need an outlet to let out my thoughts and feelings. Even if no one will be there to read or hear what I have to say, at least those thoughts aren't just stuck within the confines of my memory--forcing me to dread every moment I think about them. Recording them allows me to avoid being torn between whether or not I want to remember those memories or force them out completely. You know, I don't want to force them out completely like they do in Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, because the experiences I've had make up who I am. I take pride in that.

At the moment, I should be studying for Chinese class. Tomorrow...actually today, Friday, I have to recite a portion of a conversation in one of my Chinese text books. It's a lot more challenging than the ones we've had in the past. I didn't start memorizing it as soon I was supposed to...which was the beginning of this week. Now, I have to cram it all in. I'm incredibly tired, so we'll see how far I can go with it. As we were leaving class on Wednesday, I believe Huang laoshi (my Chinese professor) said that--unlike the conversations we've had in the past--this is going to be a monologue. =O

I believe I have ADD/ADHD or some degree of it. Actually, a lot of people do, but I feel like I have a higher degree of it than most do. I'll elaborate on the possibility that I might have it later. Where I'm trying to go with this is that my short attention span contributes to the ridiculous amount of tabs I have on my 2 windows of Firefox right now. To clean it up, every now and then, I would X them out. But before I do, I check to make sure that it's not an important site that I want to check out later.

As I was doing this just now, I looked at one of my style.com tabs. One of them had a link for the article Daul Kim Remembered. Anyone familiar with news articles would know that this means that someone has died. I was shocked, and eager to find out what happened. Did someone kill her? Did she have a mysterious illness that no one beyond her close circle knew about? Or was this article just an article about Daul Kim doing something worth writing an article about?

Model Daul Kim died from an apparent suicide in her Paris apartment yesterday (Thursday). It's sad. While I'm not a fan of hers, it's always sad to hear that someone has died at such a young age (she was 20). It's even sadder when you learn that the person has chosen to end his/her own life. They could have been able to accomplish more with their lives had they been alive and living. It's sad and disappointing. It gives me chills to the bone. The thought of it.

Yeah, I'm going to go know. Good first (but short) rant.